This isn’t going to make alot of sense, but I absolutely love being a buffoon in public. I spent a great deal of time working a corporate job, but eventually quit because of my inability to adjust to ‘Corporate Culture Behaviour’. I couldn’t get myself to use the ‘Buzz’ words and play along like a zombie; moved on to writing and just owned up to the fact that I wasn’t quite right for the Corporate Culture.
What keeps me going is reading other people’s work, watching Monty Python, and reading Kurt Vonnegut Jr.’s writing.
There’s a tremendous reward, almost an aphrodisiac when I do something good for somebody without any expectation of a reward, even if it’s just pretending to be silly to make someone laugh. Chris Farley of SNL was popularly known to fall face-down, one of his signature acts, to entertain people. He did so even at his lowest when he was in rehab to make children laugh, even though he himself was quite uncomfortable with his body and how his signature act was also a source of his self-esteem isssue — but never gave up on it because it brought him great joy to see people laugh. No matter when the cameras were rolling or not.
I read this short piece every time I feel discourages, maybe it can be of some help to you. It helps me a great deal, hence I tend to share it with others in-case they too find it motivating.
That’s just my way of getting around being caught up in brain-noise and keep moving.
Cheers and good luck with your endeavours,