Thank you for reading, Anastasia. That’s a wonderful name, it’s also the name of my favourite animated film.
I realise It’s a struggle but atleast it’s a productive one. It’s often too easy to fall into a trap of self-destructive habits, whilst it’s certainly not healthy to deal with depression by overworking to the point that one is exhausted. Some times it feels as though it’s the only way we can fight the mental noise. I found that boxing and writing really helped me, getting the physical and mental workout to keep going through life. I’d suggest watching this clip, it’s so eloquently put; I know that maybe it might not seem typically relevant but I suggest it’s worth a good listen, I realised a lot myself by watching this clip. I’ll link it below. I wish you all best and all the love in the world on your journey, I hope that you find happiness, dear friend.
(It’s two guys discussing ‘fighting’ as a source of dismissing depression, but do give it a listen and maybe you’ll find that there’s the same language present within what he’s describing — especially the part with “having it all but still not feeling fulfilled”)
Kind Regards and feel free to write back if you ever feel like you need someone to talk to, mental health shouldn’t be something to run from.
Wish you all the best,